Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Putting on my big girl pants and trying again...

Immediately when we were told our baby was going to have serious medical problems there was no question in my mind as to whether or not I would share his story in public.  I already had a blog and had every intention of using it to keep family and friends updated.  I also wanted to hopefully in some way help another Mommy that may be going through a similar situation.  I have never really been one to keep my life a secret and I enjoy letting people in on how I am feeling and what is going on in my life.  I never imagined that sharing this part of my life would be so much harder emotionally.  That is why I haven’t updated as frequently as I originally intended to.  For the past couple of weeks I have really struggled because so many of you are praying so faithfully for us and for little Isaac and I want to keep you updated, I really do.  At the same time it is hard because for the millions of sweet and kind words that are said, every now and then something is said that hurts.  Sometimes that one thing overshadows all the good and it makes it hard for me to pick myself up and keep going.  I am aware that I am a sensitive person and I need to have thicker skin, but it’s hard.  As you’re reading this please don’t worry about whether or not it was you that has said something.  I am not looking for any apologies and I realize nobody has meant to hurt me.  I just wanted to give an explanation for my absence in the blog world.  With that said here I am again.  I just keep feeling the Lord tugging on my heart to publically share our little one’s story. 

We went to the doctor for an ultrasound about a week and a half ago and were able to see our sweet boy.  You can tell he is growing because he is beginning to be all smooshed inside.  That combined with the fact that he was moving like crazy made it difficult to get many good pictures.  

His cleft lip is pretty evident in this picture.  Please don’t feel sorry for us.  We think he’s beautiful :) 

These are his sweet little hands.  Oh how I can’t wait to hold them.

The doctor said that basically things look the same as before.  Please don't be sad or disappointed by that.  He is still in the Lord's hands.  We are all just taking things moment by moment, day by day. 

Thank you so much for your continued prayers.  The Lord has just been taking care of each and every little detail.  We just feel so blessed.  


  1. Beautiful Daughter, a sweet friend read your update while in my office today and asked "How can she be so strong?" My immediate response was that it's the joy of The Lord, that is your strength. I don't think we have an inkling of how many times a similar question and response is repeated on a daily basis, and in return how many people might find that same joy because you are willing to share even when you just feel like you can't. You, Jonathan, Kadynce and our precious Isaac are making His Name famous by your countenance and it's ok to be silent, or cry tears of joy or pain, or laugh or shout; your heart tells a very real love story and it is heard over everything else. I love you!

  2. You have a beautiful story to share, and a witness for our Lord that gives you strength. I am blessed by your truthfulness....but not surprised by your strength.When you depend on the Lord and claim His promises, you can get through anything. Hugs!